One way ticket

Someday we will be placed at one tight place.A friend talks about our destinations. As we know we are here only for waiting when the time is coming and then everything will be gone. We will leave all everything what we have got, we merely bring 2 things, those are sin and merit. I try to interpreted what she talking is. when the death comes we will be given only one way ticket and the validation of that ticket is depend when the angel fetching you. on airplane you will not see many seats only one seat available for one person. if your sin so heavy absolutely will go directly to the very very bad place, but if your merit so more heavy than your sin...probably you will get a beautiful place. then what's your choice? do you wanna go to heaven or hell, everything are depending on your behaviour in this world.

Welcome back

Yesteday i was really appalling, i chatted with my old cyber net friend. not only a friend but she is a best friend in cyber net even i never meet with her. she just woke up from night mare, during her dreaming she always avoid all contacts from outside, it was wrong decision girl.while your dream was emblazoned by all conflicts you dont know what's occuring out there....you should know that still have 1 occasion for you to change your dream. Despite you switch off your time but the time in other side still keep going. Only the time will answer and figure out those conflicts ...life must go on and i just wanna say "welcome back in our communities" (cyber net).

Circle of Life

Iam just chatting with one of my friends and then i remember my old idea about association, it has embedded a long time ago in my head. I think this subject is emphasize to diverse of associations. This associate likes surge of water we are depicted as placid water,when drops of water fall to placid water and then it will be smashed afterward some circle wave will be scattered on the flat water, As we felt when we found a new associate it seems like one circle wave blasted away our life, we dont know what kind of blast will crash us. Each drop of water can be torture for our life but it can be diverse.

I would like to mention it, there outside we can find diverse of associations. In one occasion we can meet a person we depicted him as easy drop of water, this water will fall with systematic. This person can be a good friend because He/ she will accompany you as well as you care your life.

The second association i depicted as the placid water we can dropped one pebble when this pebble fall to the water and then we can imagine that flat water will have an enough splast to make that surge of water mussy. that figure can be a person give some obstacle to their friends.

The third association i depicted as the small puddle placid water we can dropped a big stone, for this phase i recommended to avoid this occurrence. You can imagine one small flat water will be gone by the big stone and the puddle water will spread to everywhere and that stone will upstanding there. Maybe can be a person make collaboration with the other to obliterate our existance in association.

The other significance
if we meet a systematic circle surge on the flat water we can called that as the circle life, a drop of water is reflection of our life every each circle surge on the water can be phase of odyssey our life, in the beginning we just have one circle surge in our life.
In the first circle surge we just know friends in area housing.
The second circle surge we reach more area to find other friends example in our versity.
The Third circle surge we reach more area outside our versity.
The fourth circle surge we reach the association after marriage.(sorry i dont know about this phase) maybe for this level you can ask Mbot(Hendra Setiawan)...he always suggest me about this topic.
but in each circle surge we can see the thin circle surge that is appearing after the thick circle surge, its can be clue how to know the charateristic of people. I think this is my perception of association but if you have other perception just give a comment and soon i will check it and reconsideration my blog. thanks

2006

We already passed the 2005, As i have known in 2005 many trouble attack my journey life. 2005 was the year where i tried to arise from ground, where i have to survive with few money for couple months, where i have a miserable depression of my life, my study, my financial and also the problem when i was in British consulate i didn't get visa for visiting that country. afterward i passed all troubles and i solved that conflict one by one. I feel delighted in 2006 i have solved half of my all trouble and at the first 2006 i can sleep quite well till today( this is a big trouble in my life). Because this Insomnia i have delayed somethings crucia for my lifel. Wish for 2006 i'll get everything better than 2005, and meet someone who wants marry with me ..hehehehheheheh

Happy New Year 2006

before i didn't have plan to celebrate this new year 2006, there day i just want to sit on my chair and watch some movies. on the morning 30 dec 2005 i just woke up as usually, but i was thinking what will i do in this small city. Maybe after i watch movie i'll go out with some friends to city and see firefest, those are normal fest in all country. Every end of the years we just saw performance of fire fest and we will countdown that time together.

while i think that plan for new year my friend offered me to go to hamburg and celebrate it there together, i think that isn't bad idea but the problem iam lazy if i must spend 3 hours only for that trip. eventually i went to hamburg next day actually i will meet with some friends in other main station.

i start from Emden at 11.09 and will meet with other friends in Oldenburg at 12.19 they will wait me on platform, unfortunately they didn't see the schedule of the train, they were waiting my train at other side not at right platforml, so i have to leave them there Gainfully i brought a book so i didn't feel lonely in the train. Arriving in Hamburg Main Station i saw around is too quiet, neither a shop open in that day. not so long i was waiting there my friend comes afterwads we go to his place.
he already cook for this celebrate.

through the middle of night we countdown the time together afterwards we eat together. i pray for this year can be a new life for me wish i will leave all unconveniences at the past and will come the all conveniences for my life for the next time.